there is a news story about a pug puppy that was beaten so badly that she will likely have brain damage and possibly be blind. it is traumatizing to read and to see the pictures because it is unfathomable how another human being can have so little regard for another life.
there are some things in this world that i just cannot understand, and one is violence. i cannot even begin to understand how we can be so evil towards each other or animals.
when i read about cases of violence against animals in the news, it shakes me to my core and i feel this overwhelming sadness and anger that i cannot shake. it is this overwhelming, almost crippling, emotion that just stays with me for a while.
maybe i’m too sensitive and shouldn’t feel as strongly as i do. i don’t know.
all i know is that i question humanity. i question whether i can one day bring a child into a world where the bad seems to outweigh the good. i wonder what i can do to help. or if there is even anything i can do that will help.
at my desk, i have something posted called “gandhi’s top 10 fundamentals for changing the world.” two are: “everyone is human” and “see the good in people and help them.”
everyone is human – fine. we all make mistakes. we all have faults. we are all not perfect. i can accept that. but how far does that go?
see the good in people and help them – how am i supposed to see the good in someone that hurts others, let alone those weaker than them? and if i can’t see that good, then where do i start in trying to help them? and why would i?
i can’t. i just can’t.
some days, i hate the world. i hate the hate. i hate the anger. i had the malice. i just hate all that shit. because that is what it is. shit. complete and utter shit. this is one of those days.
i wish i had the power to fix everything and to make everyone just get along and make everyone compassionate with each other. i wish my actions really did matter and could really change the world. i wish that was enough to fix it all.
i wish i could take a puppy that needs to be protected and cared for and loved to my home. i know that i could, at the very least, provide that.
ps: maybe you can give a puppy a loving home. im not sure how one would go about that in this case, but there are numbers. or maybe you know this dude and you can call the police. whatever the case, you can find info here. but you’ll be sad after reading it.. consider yourself warned.